I am HnF but my parents call me Muhammad.Hanafi Bin Rahmat. It seems to me its been fun kicking people ass since 28 September 1992. If you fail maths, I am just telling you I am 17. I dun care what people think of me or say about me. All I know that I am a genius living his world and currently in Temasek Polytechnic. For now, I guess I am just hooked up with iamhnf@hotmail.com. Other than that I will just remain mysterious and unknown as it is.

Where do you put your trust in someone?
Your frens or someone very close to you?
Or someone virtual or aint close to you and just similar to you?
Me putting my trust on my frens is a bit too goner
Sharing a small secret
Can leak out to whole school
So I better be wary of my secrets to people
Especially my frens
And they will always say "We're your frens, we promise not to tell anyone, we were just joking pe, no harm inflicted just because your secret is out, they laugh when your secret is out, and etc"
I dunno what does secret mean to them
Even when promised, its still meant to tell and promise broken so simply
Thats why I rather trust someone I wont meet
They wont bother telling others and just talk to you about it
Joke about it and others stuffs that you can do with your frens
I've run out of virtual frens as some are gone and some eventually became my fren, real life fren and I AM FREAKING SCARED XD
But luckily they dont remember...
So up to my last resort
A person like myself that I can share with
Whom I can trust fully on
Cos its like trusting your ownself except the fact thats its somebody else
Thats why I call them buddy
A person who have lots of common things with me, thus knowing myself a lot is like them inside out too
So I have two buddies
One is still out there and breathing and the other one is like...
Its been dunno how many months since I last talk to her
Maybe I should try talk to her
So you think you know all my secrets?



Why does weekend feel so empty?
The days spent
On this two days
Is like meaningless
Its like all the people disappear to somewhere
Leaving their bodies behind to do something at home
Its been the same all the while
Weekdays people would be complaining about this and that
But when it comes to weekend
Its as if they're totally dead
And why am I not surprised?



To wonder around again
Why am I so active on weekdays and freaking lazy on weekends?
But
Last weekend
I wasnt this lazy
I could push myself
But now its like a totally different story
Am I still waiting for her answer that couldnt reach me yesterday?
And why am I still thinking of her
Asking me all those weird questions
And in the end saying "I'm too shy to say it"
Dots...
Why am I even thinking of stupids things that I am sure I know the answer myself...
Why...
I think I need some girl to bully me :/
I just cant feel myself if it aint the same as always



First quiz and I thought it will be easy peasy
2/10 XD
Second and third one of the most confident topics so far
6/10
Jialat
The 4th quiz was supposed to be my weakest
And yet I score 8/10
Wtheck sia
I need study more! XD



Yet one of the greatest sleep ever
Finally paranoia is out of my mind
To make it even better
I've fallen out of something
And it felt great!
Now im pumped up to do anything
Just anything XD



There are to many malays this generation that look like a chinese
*Look at the mirror*
Na I dun look like one



And yet another dejavu about to happen
I can feel it



I may be an attention seeker
And crappy person but...
No girls wanna layan me
And those girls that layan me
All boring like shit
No offence
I think I rather stay single all my life
Seriously
And I mean nothing to girls too
So yea...
It changes my mind of wanting to have a gf too
Haiz
Oh well
There goes my motivations
I think I will just give up on girls
And focus more on my studies
Time to increase my backing of rate



During the CGINT meeting
I feel damn paiseh sia
I didnt even know
There was even a distinction grade!
The people there all have distinction
And I was the only one who doesnt
Freaking retarded
I wonder what happened to my Dfund1?
I could have sworn I totally ace the tests and the main exam!
Ugh nvm
I just have to keep up with my As grade then
GAMBATTE!



Its been three weeks
Since I have some undisturbed sleeps through out the night
Something just seem out of place
Never experienced this continuously before
Its just weird...
Maybe its just me



I've been waiting long enough
Time to move on
And to stop being an idiot
Thinking about it



I love going with the flow
But is it really safe to always follow the flow?
I have no idea
I am much happier in life right now
At least happy
REAL FEELING OF HAPPINESS
At least I can finally think properly
Today school was alright
The so much feared tests turn out to be ok for me
Dunno about the others
Finally...
PCBDES test next monday
Sigh...
Got to be ready for it
My most feared subject



I wonder
And still wondering
Why do people stare at me?
Even freaking total strangers
Stop staring at me!!!
Im just a lonely emo kid who wants his freaking privacy -__-
Its a total different story if she stare at me XD



My brother's aint back home yet
Guess why?
He didnt do a single thing project
And he's rushing to do it
Thats due today
And he slept at his frens house
In other words, Im never gonna follow his footstep sia
I confirm can die if follow him



And come to think of it
If someone really meant a lot to you
What will you do?
Keep it a secret
Or tell the whole world?
And then you realise
Its better to keep it a secret
Till you get complete control of it
So in other words, all the girls I have crushes and infatuations means nothing to me XD
So what now?
Find a thing that I can get control of?
Or to find a thing that I can trust fully?



Was I just being idiotic?
Or just a complete fool
Who deserted his own feelings
For another stuff
Which cease to exist in the real world
Where I can find the actual meaning of happiness
Deep beneath those tears
Of your lovely eyes?